It's not that we, mind-spirit-body beings, don't change. But our essence is permanent. Our essence is eternal. Our essence has no time or space properties. That's why we can sense each other, we can feel the collective, we transmute from one state to another. But each and one of us does choose how he/she wants to live. You can be who ever you want to be, "be" as in having a certain job, wearing certain clothes, speaking a certain way, caring for a certain amount of people... but who you really are, who your eyes reveal beyond any words, will never change. It will be lifted up, raised in Love or it will diminish and darken in pity and false assumptions. You can choose...
Who you are has no limits, and we know to little of it to comprehend its infinite dimensions, but what you become it's your choice, and your choice only.
Don't blame school, or parents or failed love stories. Take a step forward and immerse yourself in you. You'll feel the connection with the rest of the World. You will feel the pain but also the bravery of beautiful souls that walk aside you. Choose consciousness. Choose to be authentic. Live authentically.
To live in full awareness it's not the same as shutting yourself off this world, closing your eyes and imagining the world is just a still image beautifully photoshopped, that you can easily share on social networks. Awareness is engaging in Life as it is, with your heart in it, with an intention. You have neighbors, you need food and you produce garbage, you don't have all the stuff you wish, you could do better in your job, in your relationship, with your social life, you could and you can be aware of all that, and choose to embrace reality. You can be a nice person and still work hard and laugh harder. Committed and free to grow. Authentic. No shoulds, woulds, coulds... just I am, I can, I do, I eat, I sleep, I play, I speak...
“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won't either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.”
Louise Erdrich, The Painted Drum LP