Sometimes in Life we just don't belong anywhere. We have friends/family ties, but how much are we in them? We might make an effort, out of Love, to be connected, to be a part of, but despite our long wish for belonging, we don't see ourselves belonging anywhere.
... what a pity it is that people tend to consider those that become distance or lost as bad seeds. If only they knew how painful it is not to fit in.
We´re all making an effort. All.
But what goes on in our minds is for most a big mystery. Interesting or not, this continuous search for understanding life's purpose is usually what drives us into accepting Life's or society's challenges or walk away from them.
We become people in order to understand the soul, as this soul seems always so much larger than Life. But, for those whos Life has become unpurposeful, there can be a strengthening perspective that does change everything, and in this I believe:
"I found Him in the shining of the stars,
I mark’d Him in the flowering
of His fields.
His ways with men I find Him not….
Why is all around us here
some lesser god had made the world
but had not force to shape it as
"Many religions have attempted to make statues of their gods very large,
and the idea, I suppose, is to make us feel small. But if that’s their
purpose, they can keep their paltry icons. We need only look up if we
wish to feel small."
... There lives more faith in honest doubt. So don't hide your doubts from yourself, embrace them, but do take care that they do not control your satisfaction/happiness in Life. Aim to be happy. Think positive even if you don't "deserve" it. Regret only makes sense when is surpassable and a better version of you becomes possible.