Why a Good Marriage Will Break Your Heart

Loving is not for the weak. We encourage people to love and desire their partner, never realizing what we’re encouraging them to do. Desire involves wanting and longing. Who among us really wants to want? Who is ready to crave their partner, without the guarantee that the partner will always be there to satisfy their longings?

The reason there are so many mediocre marriages isn’t because so many people are pathological or have imaginary family “diseases”. It’s because the really good marriages will break your heart.

In a long-term marriage, one partner will bury the other. The more a person wants and loves a partner, the more painful it will be when he or she loses them. There are all too few people developed enough to stand by themselves, hold their own hand through the loss of a partner, and accept Life on its own terms. That’s why desire problems are so common. This situation also spells out its solution. It’s not negotiation. It’s not compromise. It’s not a sexual technique. It’s growing up to the point that you’re willing to tolerate the loss of a beloved irreplaceable partner.

There’s only one way to avoid that inevitable loss, and many people follow that strategy: Don’t love your partner too well, so that by the time they die, they won’t mean that much to you anymore.

Like many aspects of life, the choice is not whether or not you’re willing to be anxious. The choice is which anxiety you’re going to, and you’re going to have one of them, whether you like it or not. You can lose your partner a little everyday or all at once.

Nobody ever gets to have a better partner than they’re willing to give up.
Willingly loving someone, knowingly setting yourself up for loss- that’s hard for people. It goes beyond resolving sex problems or personal insecurities. It’s an issue of integrity.

Marriage is a people growing machine.
It pulls and it pushes you. It stretches you to the point where you can embrace the processes of Life and love on their own terms. Like intense intimacy and eroticism, real love is not for kids. It’s not for “wounded children” who can’t soothe themselves. It’s for adults only. We may not like the process, but it makes us capable of profound adult desire. It’s not a quick process and it’s not as simple as improving sex. We need to have more respect for those brave souls willing to risk a successful marriage.
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David Schnarch

“Let yourself be drawn by the stronger pull of that which you truly love.”
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Rumi

How anxiety looks like...

Short breath, untamed thoughts and a powerful wish of flying away to anywhere.
Accept it, but try to figure out where it comes from. What is it that you're missing. What do you desire so much that life itself is not sufficient? Is that desire for something real, or you've just imagined that there has be something else better out there. Maybe you already have what you need in you. Try to feel thankful for what you already are, and move on from there, not the other way around.

Simple pleasures... remember those and feel fine.

Beautiful story...

The Creation, by Carmen DeLavallade:

Challenge what you believe

So we think that we should grow old, accepting that we're old and so, all the things we used to do we cannot do them any more... STOP! You don't know that. We grow old, our body gets old, but our mind and spirit doesn't. And here lies the secret of eternal youth: to keep your mind alive, playful and as dreamer as any kid's head. Let go of what is common to think or do, and let yourself be inspired by LOVE. Love for music, Love for nature, Love for writing, Love for hugging and chatting... whatever pleases you. But challenge yourself, not only to listen music, but to play an instrument. Challenge yourself not only to watch nature, but learn more about it. Challenge yourself not only to remember your friends but write them a letter or make new ones.

Meet 83 year old dancer, Carmen De Lavallade:

"Life begins at the end of your comfort zone"

- Neale Donald Walsch

(...)
What it is and where it stops nobody knows
You gave me a life I never chose

I wanna leave but the world won't let me go
(...)

My Heart holds plenty of dreams

Surreal Black and White Illustrations by Dutchman Redmer Hoekstra