Dream awake... it's ok.

If we knew how powerful dreaming can be, we wouldn't call lost those who are seen as lunatics and at drift. Some of them reach the highlights and are well fed in compliments, but most, sadly, are pointed to be crazy and consequently, diminished in their abnormal human being condition.

"A lot of people think or believe or know they feel — but that’s thinking or believing or knowing; not feeling.

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E.E. Cummings

We all have two hemispheres in our brain, the master of all ideas and decisions, and in a society that dictates methods and structure, there cannot be much space for one very important part of us, us as individuals and as humans, the part that feels, questions, dreams.

We are constantly looking for meaning, for a translation of what we are feeling and how can it be applied in our daily life, and also, let's be honest, in our life projects... We desperately need meaning, as it feels as the only way to be lucid, to connect with the world. Things need to be placed in their order. Basically, what we choose to understand is what is. And in our quest to feed that stability, normality, balance, we search and grab on to metaphors, since most of the time only through metaphors can we foresee what is happening in us and around us.

We were a child that was born, another dreamer of a world unseen and the first thing we do is to imitate the ones around us, and all through our lives that's what the majority of us keeps doing, whatever the culture or religion we were born into.

“To be nobody-but-yourself — in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else — means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight.”
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E.E. Cummings

And here is where the lost, the lunatics, the susceptible of their feelings, art lovers, come in, to provoke our modeled lives, to insight us into our inner deep selves, to make us look for  

"... the distinction between the substance of the thing and the procedural overlay."

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Iain McGilchrist)

Important thinkers spent their whole life trying to unify these two areas of us, a left and a right hemisphere. Both need each other, both are important, but when it comes to understand the world and make some meaning out of our experience, it's our emotional and creative side that we need to develop and listen to. Through music, dance, singing, letting our clothes fall on the ground and really letting our well behaved self fade into the sensual feeling of losing it!

“No one can build you the bridge on which you, and only you, must cross the river of life, the true and durable path into and through experience, involves being true … to your own solitude, true to your own secret knowledge.”

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Nietzsche

Go and find a special song that you alone can sing.

We think we know ourselves, we blame ourselves for everything and we live in this constant fight of choosing right or wrong, oh man, it’s so much harder, deeper and unconscious than that…

We live in a rush of getting things done, of making sure our message was clear, of making sure we’re not missing any important step, follow up, whatever, we need to be included in what’s going on, otherwise! What??? Otherwise you’re a lunatic, you’ve got something wrong with you, you’re not included in that whatever.

Yeah, we forget we have this very present animal part in us that usually ends up making our choices for ourselves… Then we’re very good at finding reasons and excuses for why and why not, we did or we didn’t do something.

We know very little, and usually it’s in those crucial times that we find it out.

Only with age and life experience do we start being a bit more cautious before showing what’s on our mind, and even then, it’s not for all. Disclosing to our friends or whoever, what you’re really are thinking and feeling, requires a bit of “dementia”, a bit of very sensitive bravery.

So how do you get to fully trust in your thoughts and consequently, your decisions?

Some have religion for that, which sets up rules of good behaviour, but good behaviour doesn’t exclude inner hurt, pain, and insecurity. 

All of us find something that will take our attention out of our questions, that’s why, being left alone it’s usually a painful thing. Being left alone means being left with our doubts, regrets, with our unspoken words. And you start, because it’s our nature, to question the purpose of being here. We need a purpose, we need a reason to get off bed, to get out of the door. That’s why we partner up. We need an excuse for waiting, for postponing, for not having to think about ourselves, we’ve got someone else to worry about, and it’s so much easier to direct our attention onto someone else… Then you have kids and it’s a whole new unselfish view of life. You don’t choose for yourself, you choose for them. They’re the reason for anything, even for your deranged actions, it was for them! You did it for them. Yeah, we project our worries onto others very easily.

When you’re in front of your reflection, what do you see? We see whatever our mind is feeling. If it happened that there was a nice tune or conversation before we saw ourselves, all cool, we are good people, but if you see yourself before a disappointment, something that didn't go as expected, ui, you don’t look as great do you?

That’s why trusting too much on your mind is letting you, whoever you are, being led by a very partial, sensitive, and pre-conditioned judge. Pre-conditioned in so many ways: parenthood, school, life opportunities, religion, race and color.

“No one can build you the bridge on which you, and only you, must cross the river of life”

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Nietzsche

How can we find some tranquility in being, knowing so little about ourselves and reasons for purely existing, or sadly, stop existing? … This is going to sound bad, but the solution might be, not really caring so much for what others think. You’ve been given an existence, and that’s all we have. We exist. And existing means: taking care of yourself. How can we do that? With respect. Respect about the nature of things and people. Because we do know very little, that first respect and compassion about ourselves is really important to forgive, care and grow up, and later it has to be used on others too. People around us choose and make, say things that cary so much of their existence, without being aware of. We give so much space for misunderstandings, unveiled mistakes, it happens all the time. We exist by miracle and for that we so should be humble. Why are we here? Why are some called to leave? Why so many suffer so much? Why does life on this earth seem to be so unfair, so cold, while being for so many others, amazingly warm and blessed?

We know very little, and some have spent their whole life trying to write some sort of manual of conscious conducts, but we still know very little. We do know that through understanding, forgiveness and space (be it physical or through time) we give an opportunity to a more peaceful and loving life, and that’s all we aspire to. Whether you’re a super rich person, or someone closed in, what we most wish for is to love and be loved and feel inner peace.

“The process by which man is able to posit his own subjective nature outside of himself … is at [the] bottom of all effort and the germinating principles of all reform and all progress.”

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Frederick Douglass

“To know what one ought to do is certainly the hardest thing in life. ‘Doing’ is comparatively easy.”

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Maria Mitchell (astronomer)