Forgiveness

"Each of us has something in our life that is a source of regret, grief, shame, guilt or sadness… something we’ve said or done that haunts us, distracts us, and weighs on our heart. Breaking a promise, making a bad or non-nourishing choice, lying and getting caught, cheating on a partner, saying something that was mean, not speaking up when you could have… The list of universal transgressions that we all share is limitless. And just as the resentment we may have for another person can turn us outwardly bitter – the anger we hold in our own heart – for ourselves – can inwardly damage us even more as it festers and overwhelms us. These toxic, destructive emotions can lead to cynicism, reactivity, and depression. But we can begin the process of healing whenever we are ready to give ourselves permission to forgive.
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Ask yourself, “Knowing what I now know, would I have acted differently?”
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Saying to yourself, “I am a bad person” — is toxic and disempowering. It’s devolutionary. The fact that you would now choose differently means you are NOT a bad person – but someone who chose poorly in a given moment – just as we all have.
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Give yourself permission to acknowledge your less conscious choice AND make a personal commitment to making more conscious ones going forward."
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Davidji

 

"We can never obtain peace in the outer world until we make peace with ourselves."

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Dalai Lama

on Guilt...

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Is there always a right way to do things?

If you you’re stealing, lying, cheating, faking, deceiving, harming, criticizing or judging others.
If you’re a coward or selfish and you manipulate, abuse, neglect, disrespect the ones that trust you, then, yeah, you’re doing everything the wrong away and you “aint worth shit”. Simple as that.

But do you regret being a shithead? ... Hum?
Ok, that’s a start. You might still have a chance of doing something right.

You see, guilt acts as an alarm clock to warn you about that choice of yours, a signal that tells you you’re not doing the right thing. If you’re feeling guilty, you know exactly what’s making you feel that way, and there’s your answer. But here’s the fucked up thing about guilt. It actually stops you from doing the right thing. It just pinches you and nags you till you reach such high levels of saturation that you stop thinking straight. And, how stupid can this be, guilt can actually make you avoid the person you’ve wronged.

So, stop feeling guilty and move on. What can you do to make emends?
Say I’m sorry and commit to never ever again repeat the same mistake.

Be brave to be good.
Be smart to do good.
Be clear to feel good.

… and remember. Life is a miracle. Respect your own Life, respect others.
How do you do that?! Well...
Stop being fucking selfish! and give thanks for all the beautiful things you’ve experienced, lived. All the adventures, love, friendship even the hardship. To breathe, to cry, to laugh, to smell the rain or feel the power of a wave… it’s a miracle! I call it a miracle because we don’t know where all this comes from!

Yes, I’ve been a fucked up shithead and I’ve hurt some really good people on my way. If I could go back would I’ve done differently? Yeah, of course!! But I can’t. We can’t. The only thing on my power is to commit in making emends and never again repeat the same mistake.

Can we change...?
Learn, read, study about Courage. Courage to speak your mind, heart and soul.
Like this:

"(...) If you really love me, then let's make a vow. Right here... together... right now. Ok? - Ok... - All right, repeat after me... I'm gonna be free. - I'm gonna be free. - And I'm gonna be brave... - I'm gonna be brave. - Good... I'm gonna live each day as if it were my last. - Oh that's good... - You like that ? - Yeah... - Say it. - I'm gonna live each day as it were my last... - Fantastically... - Fantastically. - Courageously... - Courageously. - With grace... - With grace. - And in the dark of the night, and it does get dark, when I call a name... - When I call a name... - It' ll be your name... What's your name ?
[no answer] Never mind... let's go... say it. - Let's go... - Everywhere... - Everywhere... - Even though... - Even though... - We're scared... - We're scared... - Cause it's life... - It's life... - and it's happening, it's really really happening... RIGHT NOW..."
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Miranda July
"Me, you and everyone"

... what if you don’t trust or believe in what your mind, heart or soul tells you?

Well, admitting that is a 1st step... Then work it out!
What kind of life are you living if you’re not flying it?
Listen to yourself, know yourself, figure out what are your dreams and your Life's purposes.
Common, do you really want to keep living under other people opinions and plans?!
If we really want to be of any good, we must think for ourselves, which is not the same as being selfish. You’re a lot more helpful when you're clear and you know what you want, then when you're leaning all your weight against someone else’s already complicated life. Get your shit together. Plan, work hard for it, on the way, try to be helpful, share some warm smiles and hugs. Become useful...

So, stop being such a shithead and start making of yourself someone you’d be proud to meet! You'll always look back, there’ll be always a mirror reflecting your actions. Make yourself proud! Most of the time it hurts to do the right thing, but you’ll feel alive and more important, you won’t be ashamed of who you are.

… in this I believe.

"...I climbed the tree to see the world."

Finally...

“If you are sad, ask yourself why you are sad. Then pick up the phone and call someone and tell him the answer to the question. If you don’t know anyone, call the operator and tell him. Most people don’t know that the operator has to listen, it is a law. Also, the postman is not allowed to go inside your house, but you can talk to him on public property for up to four minutes or until he wants to go, whichever comes first.”
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Miranda July

On secrets...

As simple as that... kids get it better than we do.

What is Dance? from Christian Robinson on Vimeo.

“there are times when we stop.
we sit still.
we listen.
& breezes from a whole other world
begin to whisper.”
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James Carroll

I am the Captain of my Ship!

Persistence, positive self-talk, build your confidence not from thinking you can't do it. We all have it in ourselves... reinforce positive actions, feelings. Choose well what you believe.

on Words

Our words, mine, yours, shape the World.
Choose your words carefully,
either in "just" your own thoughts or speaking with others.
Kindness and Courage go hand by hand.

Meet Nick Vujicic:

“Have you ever felt trapped in circumstances, then discovered that the only trap was your own lack of vision, lack of courage, or failure to see that you had better options? (...)
well, if you can't get a miracle, become one.
...God's love is so real that He created you to prove it. Give it back.
We may have absolutely no control over what happens to us, but we can control how we respond. If we choose the right attitude, we can rise above whatever challenges we face.  
(...) I encourage you to accept that you may not be able to see a path right now, but that doesn't mean it's not there.” 

“A soft woman
or a red fox
caught in meditation.”

“The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.”
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F. Scott Fitzgerald

“Trying to define yourself is like trying to bite your own teeth.”
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Alan Watts

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As a little child may learn
To sit or stand or wait his turn
The things you know will slowly slip away
All we have is here and now, today
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