To return back home...

Major trail runner talks about the need to get back to his roots, back to simplicity... inspiring.

Why Lisboa...

despite the dark clothes most people wear, the constant complaints about how hard life is, the genetic fear of losing or winning (the last one because the common belief is that you will eventually loose what you won), living in Lisbon allows me to sometimes live days like this (in the picture), and these days feel like happy days...

this continous heartache that weakens me...

Nils Frahm – Said And Done (live at Haldern Pop Festival 2010) from Erased Tapes on Vimeo.

I regularly watch inspirational videos and I think about the way I think about things, and I try to be a good person (except when I’m in a hurry, then I do loose a bit of my grip) and, despite my effort, right here, in my heart, I’m always so sad... I believe in the wisdom of the heart, I believe in spontaneity, in laughing with joy, bathing in the sun, I believe in playing with sweetness and cleverness! I believe that life should not be wasted with silly annoying things, with ugly things, with things that are negative, things that are a pure waste of time, shallow things... and yet, I feel that I’m living a life full of all those things. I spend too much time alone, I spend too much time on the computer, I don’t create anything, I don’t share anything that is my own. I like to dance, I like to paint, to draw, I love to write and to listen to music. I love to help others with my strength, I love to feel that I’m doing something useful. I love to build castles in the sand with a friend or friends. Oh man, I get inspired so often! But my hands are dormant, my head is empty... I’m sad. I think that I if had my own window, from where a warm light could be seen from outside, then I wouldn’t feel so misplaced. I would be reading, or writing or listening to my favorite songs, and friends would ring at the door. What is it that makes me feel like I don’t fit anywhere? Where should I be? what should I be doing to really be the full me? I have so much to give, but I think I might be broken...

Mending...

Beautiful performance from artist Beili Liu Building from little pieces, mending, making sense of fragments, memories, taking the time to make sense... "she is in control, she is in charge, she is the one that creates, in this frightening environment (scissors above). When facing uncertainty and concern, the best that we can do is something really simple, with calmness and persistence some change can happen"